Confrontation

Valjean, at last we see each other plain! Monsieur Le Mayor you'll wear a different chain... wait, I don't mean the confrontation from Les Miserables! Though that song is fantastic... Internet sigh it just seems like I've been having a lot of confrontations recently. This week has actually been pretty terrible. I have so much crap to deal with. Of course there's my ever looming college apps. People have gotten into their schools and I haven't even sent out apps! (oh but congrats to my buddies Sonya and Nicole for getting into their dream schools!) But on the bright side I did my Lafayette interview Friday. It went really well! Ughhhh I want to get in sooooo badly! It was funny though cause my dad saw campus for the first time and in the car was like "Wow Mara that school is really nice! I'm impressed..." Yes dad don't be surprised. But back to complaining. Then I have family stuff going on...of course. Then I had two seperate confrontations with friends over the weekend. What messes?!?! I just want things to be better! And I'm trying so hard but my reationships are pretty screwed up. Like most of my relationships are pretty warped right now. I'm just one of those people who needs to fix things and right now some of my problems aren't really in my control. So I just have to wait out this rough patch and wait for my luck to turn around. Oh but there's also the story of how I didn't perform at Giants stadium. We walked out to the field saw an injured player, then they couldn't get him on the stretcher, so we missed our time block. So we awkwardly marched off after not performing. It kinda sucked that we got all cold for nothing, but I wasn't half as upset as some people. And they did invite us back for New Year's day, but I really don't want to go. Ooh old news but Thursday I got my recital info for jazz! I'm wearing a black sequin top with biker shorts and dancing to a remix of Flashdance! I was really excited compared to the other girls in my class, but that's okay. I also need to stop overeating so I can look hot in my costume ;). Saturday I took some pictures, went to lunch, went to the mall (I failed at gift shopping), the babysat. I love the family sit I babysit for. The kids are so well behaved and I made serious bank! My weekend ended with some funny Christmas pics with some funny people. Oh and funny story...apparently I'm doing indoor color guard? I went to the meeting to say I was just going to manage and then I got roped into performing... Oh well it's only gonna be January-March with 3 competitions not anything ridiculous. Time to do my Keaney project..here we go heart time!

A week in the life

Hmmmm so much has happened and yet nothing at all. Monday was boring. Tuesday was boring. Wednesday was ballet! And the rest of my class didn't show up so I got a private lesson with Ms. Jackie! It was ahmazing and she said I switch to a better class since my technique is really coming along! Then I came home and watched the Michael Buble Christmas special. Oh my gosh, I'm in love with him. He's adorable and his voice is absolutely glorious. I wish he was mine! Also on Wednesday I hung out with my friend Sam. We hadn't really hung out in a while so it was nice to chill and discuss all the drama in our lives. I went to pick my boots up from the shoe repair and now the stains aren't coming out so the entire boot has to be darkened to match : /.  Honestly if I ever find out who spilled that soup I will slap him/her across the face! And I'm usually not the violent type! Yes, so after that disappointment we went to starbucks. Sam's dating Alex. They're cute together, but I made sure she wasn't going too fast. We talked about my lack of a boyfriend...you know my favorite conversation (insert sarcastic laugh that eventually my cats will appreciate). Thursday was fine. I had one of those loving life moments. Does anyone else get those? I was driving home from a very good jazz class, had my iced nonfat mocha latte (mocha lattes are my fave), and was listening to Fleet Foxes. It felt sooo right :). Friday was really good. I had a Euro test hopefully I did well on it. I need to get an A this marking period, like really badly. I know I guessed the question on witchcraft right so at least that was right! Earlier in the week we had one of our debates and apparently AP Econ thought we were really loud! Guess we all know who got the more interesting class! Just kidding. So I got home from my voice lesson, took a nap on my couch, and then got all dolled up for Shalom Dragon/ Timequake. My hair looked pretty fantastic again not that there's really any boys to doll up for. Seriously not a lot of prospective men. At least not ones interested in me. Oh well, Nicole was my date and she appreciated my hair. Shalom Dragon/Timequake was really good! I was so proud of my friends! However I wish they would pick a band name so I can avoid all these backslashes... Afterwards we went to the diner. Overall a very nice evening. The next day I woke up fairly early for my Region II choir audition. I'm not really sure why I said I'd try out for it. My audition went pretty well. EXCEPT I asked to restart my solo and the judge said NO! I was supposed to be allowed one restart but oh well, I probs won't make it now :(. Then I came home and napped for a really long time. Then I went and babysat. The parents were hosting a party so I had to keep the kids entertained downstairs. The kids are kind of bratty. And they're kind of boring too. The one kid is a 3rd grade girl, she asked if I had a boyfriend...AWKS! (I like keeping themes running through my blogs) Seriously though at this point boys may be more trouble than they're worth! Yes and the kids were supposed to go to bed at 10 but didn't go to bed until 11. But I made some major bank so I guess it was okay. So that's a week in my life!

Let's leave donuts on people's porches

Thursday was band awards. After school I ran errands frantically trying to finish getting everyone's presents. Then I got all dolled up! When Aaron saw me he said, "Wow, you look like you jumped right out of a musical!" I'm going to miss him and Emily so much :/. They got me flowers as a thank you for being captain. I got them custom made NPCG zip up hoodies and stuffed animals. Aaron got a teddy bear because I call him Aar bear just to bother him! and Emily got a bunny because she loves bunnies! The color guard does senior gifts and I got a snow globe that plays the nutcracker ballet, body glitter! and the Michael Buble Christmas CD. Gosh, I love him he's amazing <3. My freshman also wrote me a letter thanking me for everything I did this season. I may or may not have cried after reading that one.
Friday was crazy! I got coffee with James at the Grammarie. It was absolutely delicious! Then I was very stupid. Very stupid. But God was definitely looking out for me so everything ended up being okay. Saturday I slept a lot! And I had my 2nd voice lesson of the week. I have Region II choir audition. I don't really know why I'm doing that, I'm not even excited. But whatever! My teacher said my chromatic scale is the best she's heard in a while! I was pretty excited.  Then I went out for dindin with my family. And let me tell you the Natale's are very funny people. My dad was making fun of  me for trying to pull out of my driveway while the rest of the family was trying to drive down, then poppa Nat ran over the curb so we all made fun of him. But yep we make fun of each other a healthy amount. After that I went for an evening drive with Nicole and Sonya. We tried leaving donuts on peoples front porches, but we kind of failed miserably. Well we got Jon's house. But we tried Courtney's house and she wasn't picking up so we picked the donut up. Then we tried leaving it at Miller's house, but that was just a disaster! This Sunday has been pretty uneventful just lounging around, went grocery shopping with my mom, etc.  I've been so tired recently, hopefully I'm not getting sick!!!

"But everything was beautiful at the ballet"

So Wednesday! This meant lots of new's. The first is a new hair cut! I got bangs. I was really nervous they wouldn't turn out right, but I put pictures up on facebook and I got so much support! And it's def. something new and exciting! I also bought a ton of bobby pins, hair pins, and some head bands to assist with the transition to the banged life. Today was my first ballet class! I was ridiculously excited. So quick, but embarrassing story time! So the official dress code for ballet is pink tights, black leo, a wrap skirt, and hair in a bun. However, my class is very small and very unofficial. The class is four students and one is an old woman. Like she's younger than my parents, but not by much. Any way, I had my sweatpants on and my wrap skirt in bag when I realize that the rest of the class is in yoga pants...luckily I had been overly cautious and had a pair of soffee shorts in my bag. Thank goodness I pack obsessively! So I not so stealthily pulled off my sweats and slid my shorts over the leo. On the plus side my legs looked pretty darn nice in my ballet pink tights. Class went well too. I picked things up pretty quickly, hopefully I can switch into a more intense class eventually. And of course it felt amazing! Barre stretches are kind of the best thing ever! <3 <3 <3 Also looking to the future, I got a job offer today! Well it's from the music studio I interned with over the summer so I probs won't get paid, but my boss asked if I would want to assistant direct a show! The show is Into the Woods (aka my 2nd favorite Sondheim show!!!) So that would be in the spring. Even farther in the future, I just need to enter a few more details to my common app and then I'll be ready to hit submit. I'll have done my EA Dickinson app and my app for Susquehanna (my safety, but it's rolling) done! So scary how fast this is moving!
But tomorrow I close a chapter of my life. Tomorrow is Marching Band awards. Nobody's really ready gift wise. I still need to pick up the sweatshirts and buy the stuffed animals. Then for the directors we're making a video as seniors. I feel bad nobody's really trying. My grade is so lazy about band stuff. I also still need to write my speech ahhh!
School is pretty crazy right now. I'm trying to balance my lack of desire to work and my desire for good grades. It's pretty rough. That's why I do things like blog to procrastinate my academic life. And that's a skill I can take right to college!

Clouds begin to part

I've talked myself off the cliff! Not that I was ever really on the cliff I'm too bloody optimistic for that kind of depression. :D Yes, but also things are turning around for the better. I start ballet tomorrow! I'm kind of ridiculously excited, like it's embarrassing. I've been wearing my ballet shoes around my house to break them in. I'm so excited. Also my mom was able to schedule my hair appointment for tomorrow. Tomorrow I'm getting bangs! I'm very nervous, but also very excited for a fresh new cut. Also I shot for photo...again. But this time my negatives came out. Some of them look very promising. Photography really is an incredibly emotional art form. It drives me crazy! Thursday is band awards, also very exciting. I can't wait to dress up all pretty, eat some yummy food, and give an emotional speech. Oooh also Mr. Goldstein read my college essays and yesterday he told me they were fantastic. He can be kind of hard to please so it meant a lot. Just wanted to throw in a quick update about my life, not really much else. 

What's on my mind

So a couple things on my mind.
The first is how friendships fade. I've been analyzing my social circle a lot lately. One friend particularly stands out. Freshman year we were best friends. Like we hung out just us all the time. We were sooo close. But like I barely talk to her anymore. She tries to hang out with all these new people. And something pretty important happened to me and I still haven't told her about it. I feel like she'd be all weird or something. And since this is big news and I didn't tell her I'm pretty sure we're not best friends any more. I mean this is the sorta thing you're supposed to tell your best friend, the sorta thing you're supposed to want to tell you're best friend. And I know I'm being pretty vague about this news but it's kinda too personal/ confusing to post on the good ol' internet. And like just people have changed so much recently. Like people are drinking and smoking who were completely sober last year. It's strange to see things move so fast. As for me? I guess I've changed. I'm in a weird phase where I'm not totally sure who I am. Like all my self definitions seem off. A lot of the times I don't know how I feel. Like I'm not changing important value systems and completely changing who I am. Some things are just a bid cloudier than they should be. But at the same time I kind of like this ambiguity. I am leaving practically everything behind once I graduate high school so maybe a little wiggle room on "who I am" will be good. This is ridiculously introspective and probs no one cares so I'm going to move on now.
The second thing on my mind is my hatred for photography. Me and photo have an on again off again relationship and right now we are very, very off. Today I spent 2 hours walking around Summit taking pictures of various doors. I was having a lovely time, the weather was beautiful, I was listening to The Black Keys (their music is very inspiring for being artsy and cool), and some of my shots were very nice. Then of course my film didn't roll correctly and when I opened my camera of course instead of being neatly bundled away all my film was exposed to light. This means I have my 5th roll of film to look forward to. Last project I only had to shoot one roll. This is ridiculous. When I exposed my film I just started swearing. Photography is so emotional. Like the entire process just totally screws with you. Like when you do something right it feels really good. But the challenging bits suck!
Well I'm ahead of the blogging game so I don't have much else to talk about. Hopefully this week will be better than the last. Always what I hope for!

Turkey Day with the Turkey

Thanksgiving! My Thanksgiving Eve was pretty magical. I went to Tito's Burritos with some lovely young women. We started singing a Christmas carol and some stranger came and joined us; it was a magical moment. Then Sonya's mom was being mad at her, poor thing. So I picked up Greased Lightening (my dad's Toyota Camry lolz) I drove Nicole and Courtney to the Friendly's parking lot. We loitered for a very long time. During that time we prank called my good friend Jonathan. I pretended to be a live turkey salesgirl selling him a turkey to slaughter named Hank Sgiving named Cheryl Cheryl Campbell (So nice they named her twice...her parents weren't very creative). At one point I was shouting about Billy Mays... Good times. Then Thomas, Gabe, and, Brian showed up and we went to Dunkin' for 10:00 free donuts. It was cool hanging out with the boys I usually don't hang out with them. The next day was THANKSGIVING! I woke up ridiculously early for marching band. It was my  last band show ever! Gosh, can't believe it's over :(. At the end of the football game Jon slapped Brian! What a happy Slapsgiving! As slap bet commissioner I gave a countdown for the slap. It was great, highlight of my day! The slap bet was made over a math test haha they're such geeks, but they're mine so it's okay. I also got to see some NPHSers who had returned from college. Then I came home ate kielbasa (mmm...mamma Nat makes it for all holidays. My Ukrainian heritage is delicious!), took a shower, and a nap! When I woke up Aunt Ellen, Uncle Steve, and my cousin Matthew were at my house. Yep I was napping when they arrived...sorry not sorry. We had a lovely, traditional, American Thanksgiving. My favorite are the sweet potatoes! I actually watched football on the television! I know impressive for me. Everyone was really upset when the dolphins lost (I pretended to care about football...well, I do sorta care about football). Then my cousin Katherine and her boyfriend came. I met him last year, he's really nice I'd be happy if they got engaged. That's probably a long way off, but I'm overly romantic. After everyone left, I watched Bridesmaids. It was very funny, I love Kristen Wiig. Friday meant the Holiday Walk. I love the Holiday Walk! And since 'm a senior I got to carry an extremely large candy cane. It was officially my last band activity. CRAZY! Then we got our traditional Santa picture in town! I love Christmas! We went to the diner after that. Oh, I should clarify "we" means me, Sonya, Nicole, Emma, MarkyMark, Victor, and Abs. After that we went to Abby's house for left over desserts and rock band. Dan joined us at this point. He's done with all his college apps lucky jerk! Today, was very busy for me! I took my shoes to a shoe repair place. Why? Because someone spilled their stupid soup in a school hallway and didn't even have the courtesy to clean up their stupid mess! So not only did I embarrass myself (I was walking with Brian and I slipped and fell. Surprisingly though he didn't laugh he actually offered to help me up like a semigentleman Surprise cause he's not always the nicest. Probs the nicest moment we had together...anyway) so I got my boot's covered in someone else's stupid soup. My beautiful suede boots! I'm still upset obviously. I went to Brunch with Emma, Sam, and Cara Esposito. We're not a first name basis yet, but she's nice. Then Emma and I went to the mall to find dresses for band awards. I found a pretty dress, I also got a new top, a slouchy knit hat! and some makeup. Successful day. Very successful day. Also How I Met Your Mother is now instantly streamed on Netflix, needless to say I've watched WAY too many episodes today! Just kidding no such thing as too much HIMYM. Challenge Accepted! 

crazy and hazy

Congratulate me. Okay, now I'll tell you why. I recorded my college CD yesterday! The studio was really professional, and it was crazy hearing myself like that. The recorder has this really nice reverb that makes it sound like I was singing in a huge concert it's all echoey and ringy. I was also really picky listening, but that's natural. I'm so relieved that it's done. First thing I did was go to Starbucks for my first coffee of the entire week. (I gave up coffee for vocal health) Then I had coffee again later so I totally screwed up my sleep schedule cause my body was shocked by the caffeine, and I had some stuff on my mind. I would like to take this time to acknowledge my best friend Sonya. Really, she's been a fantastic friend all these years (I mean c'mon she puts up with me...kid deserves a medal!) And I know she reads my blog more than anyone (my biggest fan!). Seriously though she's there when it counts! Love you girl! I'm obviously referring to the fact she watched HSM China with me...duh! I'm also very excited because I made a new playlist to listen to while driving :D I was getting tired of my other stuff. Well I gotta go eat dindin. Hopefully it's something yummy!

a beautiful ending

So exciting things that happen in my life! Last Thursday I was in upstate New York visiting colleges! I was at Hamilton and Colgate (these schools probably won't accept me). Then Friday I was at F&M for my interview. Seriously all of these schools tried bribing me with food! Delicious :D. None of this matters because I picked my top choice school. And it's... just kidding maybe I' being superstitious but I feel like blogging about the school and how badly I want to be accepted will be bad luck! Yes but I found out they just added a film and media studies major when all my other schools only offer it as a minor. And since I want to write beautiful scripts a major would in fact be more helpful. Then Saturday we had football and then I had to babysit. The football game was senior farewell.I proudly wore my carnation and left my jazz shoes on the track symbolizing leaving band. It was really weird because it seems like no time has passed since I said goodbye to "Seniors '09". Babysitting was also fine. The kids were really shy, but they told their mom they liked me the next day so that's good.  The parents came home an hour later than they said they were going to and I was so tired! I napped on their couch a little. I got there 7:30 and the kids went to bed at 9:00 so I had plenty of free time. It was my first time babysitting for this family. First off, their house was insanely beautiful. Apparently they moved out for a while because they had a ton of work done on it. But every detail was pretty much perfect. Second, they were total lushes! Seriously they have a separate refrigerator for alcohol, a wine cellar in the basement, and my favorite, an open bottle of vodka in the freezer. Seriously! Good thing I'm not the drinking type! Then Sunday was my last band competition ever! I was emotionally a total mess. I think I cried like 7 times! The first was before I was even dressed. Mr. N (my band director) gave me flowers because I'm captain and I just lost it... I knew it would be a long day. But we won! National Champions! (really we beat 5 other bands but still!!!) I was so proud. I'm also incredibly sad it's over. We still have football games, but it's not the same! Sunday I make my college CD which I'm pretty nervous about. I hope it sounds really good! I'm singing Per Non Pe Nar, Alma del Corre, No One Is Alone (Into the Woods), and I Could Write a Book (Pal Joey). Today senior citizens visited our school. I sang People Will Say We're in Love from Oklahoma with James. It was very cute and funny. I could tell the senior citizens really enjoyed it :). Tomorrow I'm going to see James in RENT and Saturday I'm going to see The Miracle Worker which will be interesting. I'm also going to watch High School Musical: China with Sonya and some other people. It's gonna be amazing! Peace out girl scouts...

SO HAPPY :D

And in first place with a score of 96.6 winning the captions in best visual effect, best overall effect, and best color guard... New Providence High School! These are the words I heard yesterday when we became group 6A State champs! Like honest one of the happiest moments in my life. It made all the hard work I've done this season worth it. Like this really makes my senior year special.I'm so proud of my band and my guard <3
After a morning of taking the SATs (one last time please another hundred points) nothing like kicking butt at marching band to make you happy. Unfortunately postband I had to babysit. Which was good because I made some bank and watched a movie about guinea pigs but sad cause I'd rather go to the diner.
On the down side I think I'm getting sick :O which is simply not an option until after the 20th so c'mon white blood cells do work! I'm trying to take lots of vitamin C and fluids and sleep and I even did a sinus rinse today!
Also I'm still trying to decide on the last song for my college CD I borrowed some sheet music, but I'm deciding between like 6 songs GAHHHHHH so stressful!!!
What's not stressful is buying socks. Today I bought some crazy socks for senior farewell with Nicole and Sonya. It's the one day of our band careers that we can wear whatever socks we want! But this weekend is senior farewell and our last band competition. I'm going to cry so much. I cried a little at Saturday's competition. Well, not really cried but teared a little. Sunday I'm just going to be a complete mess!!! I can't believe band is almost over :(

why my life sucks: a narrative on snow

One day without power, fine okay it happens. Whatever. Now going on 4, I want to die! First of my grievances. Now is not! The time for snow! Snow in October is unacceptable. So Sunday my parents decided rather than stay in our freezing cold house that doesn't even have hot water we would flee to a hotel. Which sucks for me because I feel like a caged bird (I can't even sing due to lack of sound proofing in hotels). Serious cabin fever syndrome. So I try to do homework/ college apps and fail because I'm so miserable. Yesterday, I ventured back to New Prov into the cold to hang out with Nicole and Christina just because I'm so bored here. Like seriously I've never missed my house so badly. We've had off from school 2 days which means no more snow days...yes, good bye actual weeks off! Also my town moved Halloween to Friday. Like nbd it's just a holiday we can just move that around if we want. But yep 90% of New Prov is out of power. And we may not get power back until Thursday. I'm not going to last that long in captivity. 2 more days not gonna happen. I'll stage a break out. And I know I shouldn't complain. I do have internet and lights and heat. And last time we checked no fallen trees damaged our house, but oh my gosh how many times can I cycle through facebook, email, twitter, hulu, youtube, online shopping, etc. before I need real companionship. HELP!!!

You always remember your first time

If you read the title and thought something dirty, get your mind out of the gutter! Actually, I'm referring to my first time seeing a Rocky Horror Picture Show! Okay, so get your mind back in the gutter ;). My Friday started with an average day of school. My lunch table actually went out for lunch. Surprise surprise! Usually we don't go out. Then I had voice class which went well. After school I went to my voice lesson in Summit. I picked one of the songs for my college supplemental CD. I'm definitely singing "No one is Alone" from Into the Woods. Yay decisions! Then I got home and frantically got ready for band. I went to the football game and yay they won. The guest stands sucked and I couldn't really watch the game though. Also the guard didn't have good show according to our director. So then I had a intervention talk with the color guard and then separately yelled at the rifles. Ugh marching band can be so stressful! Ooh also at the football game I became a slap-bet commissioner! My friends Jon and Brian were arguing over a test answer for math and decided to make gentleman's agreement (huzzah!) Then I changed my clothes and did my makeup (skill) on the bus so I was ready for some Rocky Horror time! Mi amigo Rob picked me up and we drove to the theatre for the midnight showing. Our friend Christine was assistant directing the show which prompted the adventure. So we arrive and there are tons of people dressed up for the show! Like audience members who dressed crazy. Cast members clad only in lingerie welcomed us. They used red lipstick to label our foreheads with V's signifying that we were "virgins" in the Rocky Horror World. So they brought all the virgins in first so we'd have first pick of the seats. Then this drunk couple sat next to us, but then they were escorted out for being too drunk. It was kinda funny, but also pretty scary too. One of them could have hurled on me! Ah yes, but if you haven't seen a Rocky Horror show, go see one while your still young and impressionable! First they're big on audience participation. The actress playing Magenta would randomly sit next to (or on!) audience members, she was hysterical. At one point this girl was turned around to the back so Magenta goes up to her and says," Turn around and watch the movie bitch! Do you need me to show you how to watch the movie?!" I may have paraphrased that a little... Yes, and there were the infamous callbacks. Every time they say "Brad" you're supposed to shout asshole. And every time they say "Janet" you're supposed to shout slut! However, there were a couple of times I shouted and no one else did...Awks. They also gave us newspapers to cover our heads with during the rain scene just like Janet (slut) does! They didn't throw toast at me which was extremely disappointing :(. So how they did it was they played the movie and the actors would just lip synch with the screen. So I don't really know if the actors could even sing. The Frank N. Furt was really good. The Brad (Asshole) and Janet (slut) were pretty good too. I was kinda disappointed with the muscle mass of the Rocky, but he was still pretty cute. I wonder how many pairs of fishnets stockings that cast goes through. Literally everyone wore fishnets and they were mostly torn to shreds by the end of the show. Haha ridiculous! Then after enjoying the show (questionable haha) I somewhat worked my way home at a ridiculously late hour. At that point I was so exhausted I was starting to lose it. Sleep is really good. Overall a fantastic evening...even if I didn't get toast thrown at me!

bright lights, late nights

Last night was the first marching band competition of the season! 2nd place 85.002 with best percussion and best overall effect. It was ahmazing. Since I'm captain this year I got to do the retreat with Lauren and Sam. I think the 3 of us are adorable. We held hands when we marched on so cute. And then they would do their salutes and I'd dance behind them. It was so cold in just my guard uniform. Oh my gosh but we'd talk to other drum majors and drum captains and fake shmooze and it was fun. The group that marched on behind us was hysterical. One of their drum majors wore a tuxedo and another one wore a purple gown. So for their salute he would go "Detail, do the spin" and she would spin in and spin out. But they just came up with it today and they were really bad and we were joking around with them and the guy was totally in love with himself but he was cute so it was okay. Then while we were warming up this band walked by and their tuba section totally checked out my guard. It was flattering in a funny way. Yes but our performance was pretty early and awards were pretty late so we all went back to the school unpacked and then one bus went back for awards. So we got back to the school around 1. Then I said I'd drive some people home, but we ended up driving around looking for a late night snack. So I didn't get to bed until 3. Then today, I did a photo shoot with Sonya. I had a lot of people who said they would model, but 5/6 bailed. It's just really frustrating because they're all like I have to do homework, and that was my homework and now I'm gonna be behind for the rest of the project which they don't understand. If they had told me Friday I wouldn't have been upset. I could've set up a tripod or something. But I had a lot of fun with Sonya which is good. That's all for now hopefully I'll blog sooner than later.

Mr. N can I have my life back, please?

I need more time. More time to do home work, more time to do college apps, more time to practice for my musical audition, more time to sleep, more time to be free! I'm way behind on homework especially Psychology and I need to step up my game in a lot of my classes. Thanks to AP Japanese I have 3 kanji test a week. I'm naturally bad at kanji my memory sucks! I feel like everyone else does really well on them and their easy, but I actually try and I just blank during the test.  My college counselor (my mom hired one outside NPHS cause I need extra help ughhh) says I need to get straight A's the first semester. NBD, no pressure. My mom is constantly trying to get me to spend more time on my apps even though I'm doing all regular decision. I'm aplying to so many schools like 13! Do you know how many supplement questions that is??? Tomorrow is day 1 of 3 for musical auditions. I'm so stressed I literally just decided what song I'm singing, haven't printed my form yet, don;t have my monologue memorized, and am trying out against a whole bunch of people who have a better shot than me. Personally I think the musical (Pirates of Penzace) was a bad choice and we should have done Oklahoma, but whatever! Yes, so beyond screwed for that audition. I'm tired all the time for no reason. Probs anemia or something awful like that. Like caffeine barely impacts me it's so bad. But also I'm extremely free spirited and need to engage in an active social life. Also marching band is kicking my butt. It's so stressful this year. Transitioning to a new director is really difficult and most of the girls are just being very difficult to work with. I spend so much time at band it's ridiculous. My weekend was pretty awesome if not completely unproductive. Friday I had a voice lesson which was really nice. Then I went to Panera and watched an film from Sundance called Hesher. It starred Natalie Portman and Joseph Gordon Levitt. I absolutely love him. I saw 50/50 the day it came out because I promised myself that Sept 30th I'd be in that theatre even if I went alone! Luckily Nicole went with me... Then Saturday I slept in! 12 hours of sleep compared to 3 the night before! (I got 3 hrs of sleep because I procrastinated writing a paper for photography...oops) Then Saturday night I got all dolled up for dinner and hanging out with Sonya, Emma, Victor, and Dan! I haven't seen Dan in so long. Not to be vain, but I felt really pretty. Honestly I wear cute, feminine clothing, have nice hair and makeup. Where's my man!? I just read Sonya's blog and she went on a boy rant so it's rubbing off on me. But seriously sometimes it feels like no one thinks I'm attractive. Sunday I helped my guard frosh with some counts and got all dolled up again. This time it was to see Spiderman: turn off the dark on Broadway! It sounded pretty lame but was actually really cool! We were first row balcony in "the flying section" The effects were really cool I totally acted like a child! All the special effects though are really just a distraction from the soundtrack and awful script. Honestly if Rogers and Hammerstein could see some of the things on Broadway these days! After a wonderful afternoon in the city, I came home threw on my red vintage 1970s cowboy boots and went line dancing. So good! That's a pretty stellar weekend in my book. Yeah, I love marching band but I'm gonna be really happy when everything's a little less hectic. Maybe after band I'll actually blog more often than once a month! But for now this will have to do!

I need to step up my game...

So it's been way too long since I've blogged. A fact that Sonya will certainly agree with. I'm officially a senior as seen through my daily treks to school in my own car and my obsession with the college application process. I spend most of my time at marching band or else preparing for band. Saturday was our first performance! It was so bittersweet...my last first performance. Gosh I'm so nostalgic this year. Somehow it's only a couple of weeks into the school year and I"m already stressed about most of my classes. Thursday is my photo deadline and I still have to write and essay develop prints of my friends dressed as freaks and/or cross dressers, make a contact sheet, and make more dry plate prints. Yes, readers, that is a lot of photo babble and you're probs only picked up on cross dressing but that's okay. Between band and college stuff I barely have time for all my school work :/ hence the lack of blog posts. Currently I'm watching How I Met Your Mother...I'm so glad it's back! Tonight at midnight the new fun. single comes out I'm so excited! And tomorrow is Glee and New Girl so ready! Well, I need to actually do some work now!

end of an era

Helloooooo internet! Long time, no blog. Since my last post I've spent a week in the Adirondacks, visited 8 schools, gotten my license :D, and completed 1 week of NPHS marching band preseason. August 12th was in fact my birthday! No more 16 going on 17 for me. I had an awesome time with my campy camp friends in possibly the most beautiful place ever. The next day mom and dad picked me up for a whirlwind tour of NY colleges. After seeing 4 campuses, eating a ton of yummy dinners, and the 4-5 hr drive back to NJ I was pretty glad to be home. I caught myself up on SYTYCD and happily watched my favorite dancer win! That Wednesday I took my driver's test and passed! I got home burned myself a CD of music to listen to while driving and picked my buddy Emma up for some Panera. Then in the evening I enjoyed my freedom by driving to get Indian food and hang out at Ab's house. Fun fact: August 17th also marks Mamma and Poppa Nat's anniversary. 20 years! I didn't really enjoy my freedom because very, very early the next morning I left with my mom for the southern tours. Another 4 schools and too many biscuits later I was home late Saturday night. Then Sunday was supposed to be rookie night which ended early and anticlimactically due to rain. So with our new found free time me and  my section leader friends went to the diner. Then I almost died driving to the Colorado Cafe. Seriously I could barely see where I was going so I turned a GPS that was thankfully in the car on. It took me a different way then I wanted, but still I legit couldn't see anything so my sense of direction was worse then usually (Insert self deprecating joke about my navigation skills here). After some cussing, praying, and nervous singing I reached my destination thankfully. Then the next day marked my life being handed over to my band director. If I said Captaining was stress free I'd be lying. We have a new color guard director so we're all transitioning to that. He's pretty cool though. Besides that I need to manage our tshirts, our uniforms, our equipment, this crazy overbearing mother, and always be a perfect example of what the pride and class exemplifies. Easy right? But the other day at practice I told our band director that I had gathered enough uniforms for our picture and he legit hugged me! It felt really good to do a job well and help out... not to sound too sentimental. Now here's where it gets exciting last night was my surprise party! I was told that it'd just be me, Nicole, and Sonya you know chilling at Nicole's house painting toenails watching movies, but then a bunch of my friends were there! It was really exciting. I had cake and fun! I even got a $1 party hat and presents. Including a box filled with Arizona Arnold Palmer (my favorite beverage), a tshirt, scarf, and cd (the shirt says "Leave me Alone I'm Dancing..." oh how my friends know me), a short hills mall gift card, silver crackle nail polish that I'm wearing now and some jewelry, and an itunes gift card! Pretty sweet evening. I was deciding between two pairs of jeans could thing I picked the more attractive pair! Yes but then the festivity were cut short due to a NP travel ban. Thanks hurricane Irene. So my life is pretty awesome right now :)

Time Flies

So I thought that I blogged recently, but realized that it's been a little while. Summer makes it harder to keep track of time in my opinion. Let's see...what's new? Wednesday was my last dance class for the summer. I'm really glad I took classes. Dance is so good <3. Monday was my friend Rob's birthday. I was the first person to say happy birthday to him nbd (ok so I told him to drive around until midnight so that would be true, but totally counts and makes me the best friend ever). Then Monday I went to see Harry Potter...again. But this time it was in 3D, yep I cried again. Saturday I went out to lunch with some friends. We went to this dim sum place, where they would push around carts and you just picked what you wanted and they mark it down. It's very confusing if you don't have someone with you who knows what they're doing. But it's like legit ethnic food. Two of the guys I was with ordered chicken feet and cow's stomach. I stuck with super yummy, but safe dumplings :D There were also some totally delicious, magical sesame roll things. So Yummy! Then I went home got all dolled up and left for the evening. I went to go see a bunch of my friends in Hairspray. It was kind of bittersweet because I auditioned and then quit, but I got to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while! Sunday I practiced parallel parking with mama Nat. I really hope I pass my test! Then I'm driving everyone everywhere! I go for my test on the 17th! Of course Sunday meant line dancing. Even my mother comes to expect this from me now. When Rob and I walked out of the Colorado Cafe it was raining. Now this isn't usually a big deal, but when you're being transported by a jeep wrangler (Zooey) that has been sitting top down, doors off...well let's just say I got a little soggy. By that I mean I came home soaking wet! Good times! This is my last week of work for the summer. Friday is the camper's performance. For my solo I'm singing "Some People" from Gypsy. That song kind of terrifies me. Who knew I could belt? Friday's performance also marks my choreographer's debut! I mean sure my dancers are kindergartners but hey, they're cute! They're dancing to Single Ladies! Then Sunday I leave for camp for a week and then I'm looking at some schools in upstate NY. Tomorrow is my first color guard meeting for the season. I'm meeting our new director...I hope he's gay! Ok well I should go try to be productive or something...BYE!

Hi. I like to Ramble...

HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK!!! Obviously this is when I talk about HP 7.5 and how much I loved it. I actually cried in the movie theatre. This is only the 2nd movie I cried during so that's saying a lot. In case you care the first was Marley and Me. I mean c'mon the dog dies! Anyway... it was a bittersweet moment watching my childhood end I mean watching the newest HP film. I went to the midnight showing with my friend Sam wearing my Gryffindor sweatshirt. So trying to stop before I give away any fantasticness. If you haven't seen it see it! In fact I'm probs gonna see it again before it leaves theatres :D.
Yep still keeping mega busy. Monday through Fridays interning. For my solo I'm trying to sing "Everybody Loves Louis" from Sunday in the Park with George. It's crazy and totally Sondheim. It's really difficult but I get to eat cake at the end! This week marks a camp performance so if you're around check me and my campers out! Then Tuesdays and Wednesdays I have dance <3.  Tuesdays and most Thursdays and Saturdays I work out like you know pumping iron ;). And in between all this I'm trying to work on college apps including my essay and maintain a rigorous social life. Participating in things like Starbucks runs, firework observing, and even line dancing.
However this Sunday I had to skip the Colorado since I voyaged out to PA to visit Aunt Karen! Aunt Karen graciously let my mother and I stay the night to avoid waking up ridiculously early. I even tried on Aunt Karen's abaya which is sort of like a burqa. There are pictures but let's go with I'm not technologically savvy enough to post them here. Uncle Joe is currently working in Saudi Arabia and pretty soon Aunt Karen has to go back. She sounds really sad about living there. She's not even allowed to drive! And there isn't really a lot she can do to entertain herself. She's hoping to have better internet when she goes back but they're really strict over there. She can't even have Listerine since it's made with alcohol. She can't bring scrabble because it's a game of chance. Seriously it makes me appreciate my American lifestyles and liberties more not to get all patriotic on you guys.
Today I visited another college, Franklin &Marshall. So gorgeous. Super nice. It's about 3 hours from home in NJ, not too shabby. I definitely got a good vibe from the school like it's a place I'd fit in. I'm kinda sleepy about colleges so I don't know what else to say. It's another small Liberal arts school in PA, just like the other schools I'm applying to. They're all kinda similar.
On other fronts I got my other AP grade for Language and Composition and I did better than I thought I would :). I finished reading the Kite Runner. It was so good! I watched "The Invention of Lying" I love Indie films. Like not faking my way to being a hipster, I legit love them. This one was really funny at some points. It was recommended to me by a friend who always gives really good recommendations, but never takes mine! Yes, I know you'll read this at some point...watch, the stupid videos and by stupid I mean life changing and supermegafoxyawesomehot.
So that's what is new with me not much but hopefully enough.

Shalomies my Homies!

Monday was America's birthday. Like any good American woman I spent my time making food for other people. My food got good reviews so yay for the cult of domesticity! I watched some fireworks and got some Starbucks and called it a day. Tuesday was my first dance class! I showed up in my brand new convertible tights (for nondancers that means they can be worn over the toe or rolled up) and leotard. I was so nervous! The class was kind of hard because everyone in the class is WAY more experienced than I am, but I pushed through and enjoyed it. This week I'll be going back for more jazz and the start of tap!!!  Then after dance my friend Rob picked me up and we chilled :D. We watched some How I Met Your Mother, I love that show.  Wednesday I got delicious Red Mango with Sam and Emma. This kid from school was behind me in a line and didn't say hi! I mean I'm totally the kind of girl you'd want to say hi to in a froyo shop right? Thursday I had a voice lesson and a workout you know the usual. Fast forward to Friday! I woke up on Friday to very good news! I got a 5 on my AP History test! After an entire year of working my butt of I guess it paid off. I did cry the night before the exam nbd, But yay college credit here I come! My parents are so proud. Friday was the performance for the camp I intern at. It was surprisingly stressful, but still really fun. My solo was "People" from Funny Girl. Apparently my dad was sobbing in the audience haha he's really nostalgic about that show. Monday starts a new session of camp so new kids, new songs, new fun! After Friday's performance I was desperate to hang out with people my own age. I threw on a high waisted skirt and cardigan over my leotard (it was a really cute outfit btw) and met up with Sam and Emma at Dan's house. Saturday I woke up and finally finished that week's SYTYCD. I love that show, but it's so time consuming! Then I went to work out! It was a really good one; we did mostly simple exercises but very quickly. Then I went home and printed stuff for my big college binder to get ready for applications. Fun right? My friend Nicole picked me up at 4 for an early dinner at Tito's burritos. Then my friend Sonya was performing with her band so we went to go support them! The band was registered as Timequake (stupid name) but is known by their fans as Shalom Dragon (awesome name). Highlights of the event: My friends winning 2nd place!!! (I'm so proud!), finding my friend Rob's doppelganger (semi curly brown hair, tall and skinny, khaki shorts, black ray-bans and all), and then in the last band they went crazy and their attractive lead singer would stand atop the drum set and walk around barefoot (every time he took his shoes off Sonya and I would follow suit in support) but the best part was when their guitar player knocked over his amp, smashed his guitar on the ground, and dove into the drum kit. Everyone in the audience was wide eyed with hand covered mouths. To celebrate the victory of the Shalomies we went to the dinner. I sat on the bro side of the table (cause I'm a bro) and shared mozzarella sticks with Ben since I wasn't that hungry. Yep and now I'm here. True. Story.

A photo copy machine named Nicholas

This week marked my first week of work...ever! My job is actually pretty sweet. I intern at a musical theatre camp at a studio in town. I only get paid if I stay for aftercare but during the day unless I have work I'm pretty much taking classes for free. Most of my duties concern lunch time supervision, but I also do things like running activities and making photo copies. An explanation of the title: Ariel, a fellow intern, and I were making photo copies, we quickly became bored so we decided to name the copier Nicholas. He's our friend. One highlight of the week was explaining Anorexia to a 4th grader. Yes, love those kids. Friday is the camp performance so I'll be dancing with 4 year olds, but also singing a solo that I've been working on. The family who owns the studio and everyone who works there are super nice and the internship is a great opportunity to get work experience. Tuesday I had a super hard work out. I had to do 25 sets of stairs and it was timed so I was sprinting up and down those stupid stairs giving myself an asthma attack...fun, thanks Johnny. It's okay because at Thursday's work out Johnny was punched in the face by Sara! They had a long standing agreement that when Sara lost 100 lbs. she could punch him in the face. Well she did (I'm so, so, so, proud!) and she didn't hit him hard but that was okay it was still amusing. Wednesday I got a pedicure and Japanese food with Nicole! It was pretty fun. I ended up with blue toenails and a happy tummy. I watched so many movies this weekend :D Friday, I finished watching (500) Days of Summer with Sonya and Victor. I don't know how I can love a movie so much but also hate the ending so much! Saturday I hipstered out and watched Zooey Deschanel Indie flicks (and now I'm blogging about it even more cred). The first one was called The Good Girl. The main character was played by Jennifer Aniston. It's a really emotional movie at one point I had no clue what outcome I wanted for the characters I just wanted things to be better for the characters. Then I made it a double feature and watched All the Real Girls this one starred Ms. Deschanel. Can I take a moment to talk about how much I love her? Total girl crush. No shame. I think I want to get bangs like hers. She was really good in this movie! I also really liked the style of the film. The endings kind of ambiguous, I was left assuming what the character was going to do and hoping I understood him well enough. Then today I watched The Adjustment Bureau. Really a fantastic film. Great performance by Matt Damon! Emily Blunt was good...but she's Michael Buble's ex so I can never really like her. BTW HAPPY Birthday AMERICA! My plans involve cooking for the party at my house :) 1st real week of Summer and so far so good!

Dreamer

It's 12:16 and i should be dreaming, but I had coffee so screw that for now. Mi amigos Sonya and Victor just left after watching the 1st half of (500) Days of Summer. Great movie, great actors (I love Joseph Gordon Levitt <3), terrible ending! We'll watch the 2nd half tomorrow and then hopefully go out dancing :D. This morning I woke up in Lewisburg, PA aka home of the Bucknell Bison. I like Bucknell, it's a nice school. A big, green, pretty campus. It's more than a little preppy, and more than a little greek on the downside but that's OK. Roughly half the eligible student population is in a sorority or fraternity. Can you imagine me as a sorority girl? My mom was in one so I think she kind of wants me to follow in her footsteps, but she also knows I'm kind of a trail blazer. Monday is my 1st day of work, very exciting. 9-5:30 yay. I have a twitter now! Twitter's really just glorified stalking and system still kind of confuses me. People who regularly read my blog should get twitters to follow me to get even more updates about a very nonexciting person that for some reason you people care about.

Summer, get ready

Why 'ello Lovelies! Why am I in such a chipper and British mood? BECAUSE IT'S SUMMER!!! Yesterday aka Wednesday I took my last final. To celebrate for lunch I went to the diner and for dinner we had a potluck at Sonya's. Mega fun time. I made my semifamous spinach dip and enjoyed eating everyone's yummy foods. We played 9 square it's like 4 square but better! I'm now besties with my friend Sonya's little sister! She's usually very shy but yesterday we played together! She's actually the cutest thing! I signed up for some summer dance classes and ordered my stuff yesterday. Tap dancing here I come! Today I slept to 10 so glorious. Then I woke up and cleaned my closet. It's awesome now :) I had a voice lesson today that was pretty exciting. Picked out some songs to work on for the summer. Then I sang at graduation, it's raining today so I didn't have to stay for the whole thing. I have many goals this summer. I made a chart for my goals (like a Franklin-graph except it's a Natale-graph). My goals include reading watching 2 books/movies per week, reading the news, blogging more, AP Japanese, exercising more. Here we go motivation! I'm also looking forward to hanging out my friends :D Below is a picture of my immaculate closet I'm so proud

Why am I blogging at 10:39? 1) One of my numerous fans demanded it; I care deeply about my fans 2) Tomorrow is my jazz choir audition and I hope that blogging will release tension. Jazz choir is possibly the most difficult musical ensemble to get in at NPHS. This year there are only 2 open girl spots, so it's almost impossible. I know that I sound really good on my pieces, I've been practicing really really hard. My voice teacher thinks I sound good too. I just hope it's enough. 1) I hope I don't make a stupid mistake. In such a high pressure audition one slip up could cost me the spot 2) I know that there's lots of factors that are going to influence who gets selected for the 2 spots and I just hope my singing is enough. Yeah, I wanted to blog about it now because post audition I probably won't have many positive comments... but back to optimism. Sunday was the Tony Awards so exciting! The highlight was NPH and Hugh JAckman singing a duet. I love them both a lot! I'm listening to Book of Mormon right now. It won Best musical and a crapload of other awards. It's a very, very, strange show. I also spent most of my day singing Anything Goes, I'm totally the next Sutton Foster! Today I had to quit something. I can't remember the last time I actually quit something. Remember when I blogged about that terrible audition...yeah, me too. Well that led to a horrible cast list from my perspective. I decided that I had better things to do with my summer than that production at this time. I'll be working during the day, starting to draft my college applications, learning AP Kanji. The main reason I didn't get the part I wanted in this show was dance. I know that dance is the weakest part of my performance. So instead of spending the duration of the production wishing I was a better dancer and then waiting for my next audition to wish I was a better dancer, I'm actually going to become a better dancer. I'm hoping to take tap dance lessons :D I've always dreamed of learning to tap dance and now I'm going to Carpe Diem and do it! On other fronts, Friday I'm going to see Glee in concert...Darren Criss here I come, go buy the engagement ring! And really I'm just excited to finish Junior year. I'm more than prepared for summer. Peace out Girl Scouts I need to get beauty sleep for my audition!

From down in the dumps upward!

Well Tuesday sucked. I don't want to blog about why Tuesday sucked, but it did. Wednesday was a little better. I had my choir concert which went pretty well. It was really funny because we sang this very fast Filipino song and I looked at the audience and they were just like, "What's going on here?" Thursday is what I liked to call Dance Day! It was the day of my dance audition for Hairspray and the season premiere of So You Think You Can Dance. In the morning I listened to A Chorus Line to get me in the zone (I know. I'm so cool, right?) Before all this went down I went to the oral surgeon for my postop check up. I have holes in my mouth now...they kinda scare me. I have a little plastic syringe thing that I use to squirt water at the holes to clean them out. That part is really gross. After visiting the Doc, I went to Starbucks. EPIC WIN: I ordered a grande NF Iced Chai Latte, and they accidentally made a VENTI!!! I was so happy :D. Then I went and rocked my dance audition nbd. Seriously though, best dance audition ever. I even learned how to mashed potato! Then I stayed and read a scene. My group was really awkward. I read for Amber! Mrs. Vontussel was an awkward middle aged woman. And Link (my character's boyfriend) was a small 14ish year old girl. But, I still think I did a good job in my scene. I got a haircut Friday. Nothing special just more layers. Friday night I watched Remember Me. I kinda mocked R-Patts through out the movie, he just makes it kinda easy. Saturday night I had some friends over and made pies! When I was rolling the pie dough I played "Worst Pies in London" from Sweeney Todd. SO LEGIT! Then this one teenage girl decided to do what teenage girls do best, start drama. Ugh, so annoying. But whatever. Sunday, I went to the mall with Abby. I was looking for a dress to wear to a sweet 16, but didn't find one I wanted to buy. I bought a ton of other stuff though :). Including hot pink wayfarers ala Darren Criss to wear to Glee in concert!!! Then I went out for dinner for my brother's birthday. This morning I woke up and marched in a parade. Like most parades it was hot and uncomfortable. As a rising section leader slash section leader who will most likely be captain I led the parade. I got sunburn on my shoulders gotta put some aloe on that. During the parade I really wanted pancakes so after the parade I got pancakes for lunch. Dream come true! Then I went to the mall with my mom and got  a bathing suit. It's polka dotted. Oh my gosh, I want to go to the beach soooo badly! And now I'm just procrastinating doing work for Japanese class that I should have done a week ago when I missed school for my wisdom teeth. Oh I saw a trailer today for a movie I want to see SO BADLY. It stars my future husband Joseph Gordon Levitt <3 <3 <3! So guess where I'm going to be September 30th? Here's the link to the trailer! http://www.50-50themovie.com/ Peace out Girl Scouts!

:( Crap

So I'm writing this blog now because I'm way to emotional and I'm trying to avoid crying. This pot is not going to be in chronological order at all just so you know. Sorry think of it like Benjamin Button...only not. So I just got back from auditions and it sucked. I hate audition, but even more than auditions I hate bad auditions. Background info: The audition was for a summer production of Hairspray, I really wanted Amber or Tammy or another teen council member (there goes that dream), I sang "Baby, Dream Your Dream" from Sweet Charity and it sucked. I mean it wasn't bad per se, but it wasn't good it was ehhh. Every other time I practiced my song it sounded so effing good, but of course when it actually mattered I screwed it up. I mean it didn't help that the auditioners didn't look at me throughout my entire audition. I'm used to steely gazed totally concentrated judges. I was just really surprised that the director looked up maybe once. I wanted to clap my hands just to get their attention. And then I was so distracted by all that crap that at the end I got all breathy ugh kill me now. And while I know that everyone thinks their auditions are bad I'm actually trying to be objective which in this case means stating that I'm mediocre.
On the plus side I survived wisdom teeth removal :) I watched almost 12 movies (if you care: Charlie St. Cloud, Funny Girl, Hello Dolly, Morning Glory, The Prestige, XMen 2, XMen 3, My Best Friend's Wedding, The last 20 minutes or so of The Fog of War, and the last half of Guys and Dolls). After my reduced diet my abs are looking better than usual ;). I was uber happy on Saturday because I got a surprise visitor in the form of one of my best buddies, Rob. He brought me watermelon Italian ice, flowers, and a homemade card :D. Then we played Truth or Dare using my lame itouch app. I still have 5 truths and 1 dare to plague him with. Any ideas? We also made a slapbet on the world ending ala How I met your Mother on if the world would end. Since the world did not end I have 4 free opportunities to slap my dear Rob in the future. I used my first at 6:01 haha. Oh, but then I got crap from several people today because some people don't understand the whole just friends thing. I love interrogations...NOT. I'm starting to stop taking my pain meds and instead switch to advil. well,it was fun while it lasted. Today I went to school and got back to work with a slightly less toothy grin. Just kidding I sucked it up with a nonchalant attitude wishing I was at home sleeping and doing prescription drugs.

Good bye Wisdom teeth D:

Yesterday was a day full of drugs woohoo! Totally legal though because they took my wisdom teeth out. Yes, I did cry in the operation chair. I was really scared my jaw was going to get messed up and I wouldn't be able to sing on Monday. One of the nurses told me to stop crying so I could enjoy the laughing gas haha! And enjoyed it I did at one point the nurse sounded like she was repeating herself so i laughed at her. Then of course I passed out. I'm pretty sre when I woke up I was humming my audition song at least I heard one of the nurses say I was singing. I actually don't feel that bad. Like it hurts a little but I didn't really swell up that much. Sorry to disapoint those who wanted pics if me looking more chipmunky than usual. I then watched Charlie St. Cloud. Zac Efron was very comforting to me in my time of need :). My friends Emma, Isabelle, and Abby brought me a green tea soy frappuchino. It was so good! It actually made me feel a lot better. Then after some time I decided to watch Funny Girl, fantastic. My mom and brother brought me a ton of red mango frozen yogurt to last me a while. It's banana, strawberry, and chocolate and delicious. And that was pretty much the first day of my wisdom teeth ordeal. I woke up in the middle of the night around 1 or 2 took some pain meds and iced my face while watchin Wizards of Waverly Place. Yep, that's what getting wisdom teeth out is really all about.

And I love the Caberet!

On Monday I watched this musical thing on youtube called Starship it's from a theatre group called starkids. They also made A Very Potter Musical aka the story of my life. (Can you say "The headmaster Rumbleroar, he's a lion...who can talk!"). This a great time to transition into Glee. Why you may ask. Because Darren Criss (<3 x infinity) starred as HP in AVPM and now plays Blaine on Glee! I have the biggest crush on him. This week on Glee marked the return of Jonathan Groff. I. Love. Jonathan Groff. He has the most gorgeous voice listen to anything from Spring Awakening and you'll know what I mean. But seriously when he started singing I actually started cheering and fan girl swooning. And yes, I know he's gay :/ On a happier note, Wednesday was my voice recital. It was Disney themed so I sang Cruella Deville. I got really into dressing up. I wore a white dress with black polka dots and some killer red high heels. Everyone said I did a really great job! I even had strangers complimenting me :D. And Ms. Kirkland put me 2nd to last in the order which means that she really liked how I sounded on my song (jazz choir auditions here I come!) On Thursday my SAT tutor came for a surprise lesson meaning no one ever wrote it down on the family calender so  that wasn't good. And now it's Saturday and I thought we had a session and he's now not here. It's kinda confusing. I have a really good tutor though. His name's Mr.Pheysey and he's a total geek! He even march Drum Corps so he makes everything a band reference. Friday was mega fun! I now have a new voice teacher! Her name is Mrs. Wilkens and she teaches from her home in Summit. We worked on my audition piece(s) for my upcoming Hairspray audition. I still haven't decided officially but now I'm leaning towards one :). Yeah but she seems like a really good teacher. I saw both songbooks for Legally Blond and the Scarlet Pimpernel, very good omens. I also went out for Indian food for the first time...yum! After dinner we played scattergories at my friend Dan's house (I won!). Other than those details the most exciting part of my life is 1/2 price frappuchino week at Starbucks. I've had 4 this week nbd....

Is this a life or a menagerie?

Friday was my APUSH test!!! I think I did pretty well! Multiple choice I wasn't to worried about because I did really well on practice exams. And the essay prompts were pretty good. The DBQ was glorious. I really hope I did well, I mean it's not so much about the grade as it is about the ridiculous amount of work that went into preparing for that exam. Confession: I cried a little the night before the test because I was so stressed out about the test. In summary, my fav part of the test was sealing the packet with the little secrecy stickers. Then Friday was mine and Sara's (she's my nanny of sorts...it's a weird hard to describe relationship) 9th anniversary! We went to the mall to buy Sara clothes and I got my first frappuchino of Starbuck's 1/2 price frappuchino week :D. I also went on one of rants about how I don't think I'm pretty because boys don't like me. And I know I shouldn't evaluate myself based on inconsistent boys and that the media sets unrealistic standards for teenage girls and blar blar blar but it's hard when most of friends are taller and/or skinnier than you. Then Saturday I did SAT subject test...even more bubbles to fill in yay! I took my Literature one first. I didn't study that one at all and kinda just did it for the hell of it. Basically they make you read a bunch of trippy passages and answer questions on them. And then I did History the questions are much more straight forward than the AP test (What was the Emancipation Proclamation vs. Inception mind trap question). Then I worked on my Japanese project with Sonya and Courtney. It's on かんきょう or the environment. It's a pretty embarrassing/awkward/cute/educational video. Then Saturday night I went to see Water for Elephants. Everyone from NP was there coincidentally. It was a pretty good movie, I enjoyed it. I still think Reese Witherspoon wasn't a good choice. She's nothing like how I imagined the character...but whatever. This week is going to be really exciting Glee season finale Tuesday, I'm failing my AP Lang & Comp test on Wednesday (2 here I come!), have my voice recital Wednesday night (I'm singing Cruella Deville and I bought a new dress and shoes for the occasion), my first voice lesson with my new teacher on Friday as well as the much anticipated Disney sleepover with Nicole and Sonya, and maybe even some line dancing on Sunday!

So it goes...

I'm in a very Kurt Vonngut mood recently, hence the title (and my new quote of the extended period of time that is yet to be determined). I like KV because discussing him gives me major hipster cred. Today I had lunch with Emma, Sam, and Lesia...I dressed up as a hipster for the journey to Panera. Oxfords, ripped skinny jeans, purple v-neck, hipster scarf, and my teal wayfarers. Oh and now I'm blogging! Yeah, you wish you were this hipster. Ah yes but exciting things in my not so exciting life. On Friday Mama Nat and I drove out to Gettysburg so on Saturday we could look at Gettysburg College. The exciting part is that I really liked the school! First off the town is really cool, they have all these random historical reenactments, my kind of town. The campus was absolutely gorgeous, its scores classify it somewhere near my "target school range", it's a small school (mucho importante) and their bleachers are orange (Sonya's favorite color!). After leaving the school my mom drove me to the battlefield and I took pictures for my photography class hopefully the negatives come out fingers crossed. If all goes well I'll have lots of cool pictures of cannons :D...but the photographic process hates me so probably not D:...so fingers crossed. Also today I watched the King's Speech. As someone who overcame a speech impediment I found it quite inspiring. But in my case three years of torturous speech therapy paid off. And in this movie's case Helana Bonham Carter's performance was pure magic. It was also nice seeing Dumbledore as king... And today I found a voice teacher!!! So the funny story is that I had a voice teacher but then she moved to NYC without telling me so I've been teacherless since Christmas.. sounds funny right? But now with audition season coming up I began a quest, a quest that ended today. I'm scheduled for my first voice lesson Friday the 13th same day as my Disney sleepover with Nicole and Sonya. Looks like my unlucky day is shaping up! Okay at this point you're probably drooling on your keyboard out of pure boredom and to save your computer from permanent damage I'll end my post now.

Great Expectations

You may have thought that this post would be based on a Charles Dickens novel, but you were wrong. DEAD WRONG! Actually unless you're studying Brit Lit like me that probably wasn't your first insinct. We all have expectations. This week has been filled with unmet expectations. I expected to get a perfect score on my last physics quest (quiz+test...good one prof. yonhog) and while I did better than my usual I was still disappointed. I expected a friend to do one thing and he did the complete opposite. I expected to have a kick-butt work out on Tuesday. I was really looking forward to some much needed stress relief and while the exercises were difficult (try doing a plank on only one arm and one leg...ouch) I wasn't totally satsified at the end. Then there's bigger and broader expectations lik expectations for a class, an audition (I have 2 or 3 coming up... :O), or even friends. So from now on I'm going to try to avoid expectations. Not in a cynical/pessimitic way just in a realist/down to earth way. And I'm going to need all the grounding I can get to make it throughthe rest of High School. But to turn this post around I'll comment on some events that have recently exceeded my expectations. Things like Sunday's jog, Tuesday's voice class, today's cappuchino, or today's episode of "The Office" (I loved the RENT parody). It's the little things that keep me going :D

Herrre we go!!!

This is my first post and it's for the pure sake of first posting. After reading my friend Sonya's blog, she told me I should start my own. It seemed like a pretty good idea since I like writing and feel like I have a lot to say. I don't really know where this blog is going so I think I'm just going to sit back seat and see where my keyboard takes me. If you're reading this either you're a) my number 1 fan in which case you should send me a present after reading b) a stalker eek! c) someone with wayyy too much time on their hands...find a hobby or d) someone actually interested in my life. Ok so maybe the last one was a joke. Whoever you are thanks for being with me from the beginning...I'm glad my first time was with you ;) First post down time to sleep.