Mr. N can I have my life back, please?

I need more time. More time to do home work, more time to do college apps, more time to practice for my musical audition, more time to sleep, more time to be free! I'm way behind on homework especially Psychology and I need to step up my game in a lot of my classes. Thanks to AP Japanese I have 3 kanji test a week. I'm naturally bad at kanji my memory sucks! I feel like everyone else does really well on them and their easy, but I actually try and I just blank during the test.  My college counselor (my mom hired one outside NPHS cause I need extra help ughhh) says I need to get straight A's the first semester. NBD, no pressure. My mom is constantly trying to get me to spend more time on my apps even though I'm doing all regular decision. I'm aplying to so many schools like 13! Do you know how many supplement questions that is??? Tomorrow is day 1 of 3 for musical auditions. I'm so stressed I literally just decided what song I'm singing, haven't printed my form yet, don;t have my monologue memorized, and am trying out against a whole bunch of people who have a better shot than me. Personally I think the musical (Pirates of Penzace) was a bad choice and we should have done Oklahoma, but whatever! Yes, so beyond screwed for that audition. I'm tired all the time for no reason. Probs anemia or something awful like that. Like caffeine barely impacts me it's so bad. But also I'm extremely free spirited and need to engage in an active social life. Also marching band is kicking my butt. It's so stressful this year. Transitioning to a new director is really difficult and most of the girls are just being very difficult to work with. I spend so much time at band it's ridiculous. My weekend was pretty awesome if not completely unproductive. Friday I had a voice lesson which was really nice. Then I went to Panera and watched an film from Sundance called Hesher. It starred Natalie Portman and Joseph Gordon Levitt. I absolutely love him. I saw 50/50 the day it came out because I promised myself that Sept 30th I'd be in that theatre even if I went alone! Luckily Nicole went with me... Then Saturday I slept in! 12 hours of sleep compared to 3 the night before! (I got 3 hrs of sleep because I procrastinated writing a paper for photography...oops) Then Saturday night I got all dolled up for dinner and hanging out with Sonya, Emma, Victor, and Dan! I haven't seen Dan in so long. Not to be vain, but I felt really pretty. Honestly I wear cute, feminine clothing, have nice hair and makeup. Where's my man!? I just read Sonya's blog and she went on a boy rant so it's rubbing off on me. But seriously sometimes it feels like no one thinks I'm attractive. Sunday I helped my guard frosh with some counts and got all dolled up again. This time it was to see Spiderman: turn off the dark on Broadway! It sounded pretty lame but was actually really cool! We were first row balcony in "the flying section" The effects were really cool I totally acted like a child! All the special effects though are really just a distraction from the soundtrack and awful script. Honestly if Rogers and Hammerstein could see some of the things on Broadway these days! After a wonderful afternoon in the city, I came home threw on my red vintage 1970s cowboy boots and went line dancing. So good! That's a pretty stellar weekend in my book. Yeah, I love marching band but I'm gonna be really happy when everything's a little less hectic. Maybe after band I'll actually blog more often than once a month! But for now this will have to do!