:( Crap

So I'm writing this blog now because I'm way to emotional and I'm trying to avoid crying. This pot is not going to be in chronological order at all just so you know. Sorry think of it like Benjamin Button...only not. So I just got back from auditions and it sucked. I hate audition, but even more than auditions I hate bad auditions. Background info: The audition was for a summer production of Hairspray, I really wanted Amber or Tammy or another teen council member (there goes that dream), I sang "Baby, Dream Your Dream" from Sweet Charity and it sucked. I mean it wasn't bad per se, but it wasn't good it was ehhh. Every other time I practiced my song it sounded so effing good, but of course when it actually mattered I screwed it up. I mean it didn't help that the auditioners didn't look at me throughout my entire audition. I'm used to steely gazed totally concentrated judges. I was just really surprised that the director looked up maybe once. I wanted to clap my hands just to get their attention. And then I was so distracted by all that crap that at the end I got all breathy ugh kill me now. And while I know that everyone thinks their auditions are bad I'm actually trying to be objective which in this case means stating that I'm mediocre.
On the plus side I survived wisdom teeth removal :) I watched almost 12 movies (if you care: Charlie St. Cloud, Funny Girl, Hello Dolly, Morning Glory, The Prestige, XMen 2, XMen 3, My Best Friend's Wedding, The last 20 minutes or so of The Fog of War, and the last half of Guys and Dolls). After my reduced diet my abs are looking better than usual ;). I was uber happy on Saturday because I got a surprise visitor in the form of one of my best buddies, Rob. He brought me watermelon Italian ice, flowers, and a homemade card :D. Then we played Truth or Dare using my lame itouch app. I still have 5 truths and 1 dare to plague him with. Any ideas? We also made a slapbet on the world ending ala How I met your Mother on if the world would end. Since the world did not end I have 4 free opportunities to slap my dear Rob in the future. I used my first at 6:01 haha. Oh, but then I got crap from several people today because some people don't understand the whole just friends thing. I love interrogations...NOT. I'm starting to stop taking my pain meds and instead switch to advil. well,it was fun while it lasted. Today I went to school and got back to work with a slightly less toothy grin. Just kidding I sucked it up with a nonchalant attitude wishing I was at home sleeping and doing prescription drugs.