Musings from purgatory

...okay so I'm not really in purgatory just math class! Math class is pretty similar though. I'm almost one month away from graduation which is ridiculous! I had two voice recitals last week they went well. I'm done with my AP tests which means I'm chilling heavy. This weekend is relay for life and it'll be fun spending extra time with all my buddies while fighting cancer! Dance recital and prom and into the woods are around the corner oh those children will be the death of me it's a good thing they're cute! Also over the summer James and I are going to see into the woods with Amy Adams as the baker's wife I'm super excited!!! James and I are singing a song from sweet charity too but my book is missing. In fact a lot of my stuff is missing hopefully I find that stuff soon! Bahhhhhhh I'm such a dreamer I'm just so ready to leave and start an adventure! I've been here and with these people for way too long and I just need to get out and follow my dreams! Don't get me wrong there's a lot I'll miss about good old new prov (nice place nice people new providence) but I need a change of pace. Right now I'm listening to Of Monsters and Men I love them! Well this killed most of math class and now I have physiology...

She lives her life like a movie

SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED! The biggest news of course is that I got into the college of my dreams! (Literally since I had two dreams about Lafayette!) That's right I'm going to be a Leopard :). So it turns out everything worked out after all! I got into a top-notch school with a name my dad can be proud of. I am so excited for my college future of making friends, watching and creating beautiful films, and potentially an a capella choir! I also flew halfway around the world and back! Despite two 14ish hour plane rides the Japan trip was by far one of the best experiences of my life! It's such a beautiful place; there's mountains, cherry blossoms, and shinto gates everywhere! The people are incredibly friendly despite the fact that I butcher their language at every opportunity. We started the trip in Tokyo. Tokyo was nice. Personally, I wasn't crazy about the big city it was a little too busy for me. Kyoto was much more my style very traditional and pretty. We went out to a shrine in kamekura (hopefully spelled that right) where we climbed up to this shrine on a hill and we could see the Pacific Ocean. It was incredibly beautiful. Also we visited Ueno park which is gorgeous this time of year with all the cherry blossoms in bloom. The trip out to Hiroshima was very moving. I cried in the museum, so sad. Then we ventured to our host stay in Fukui. My host student was once again polite but generally quite. His sister though was a total sweetheart! She drove us around and really took care of us. And our host mom made me feel like Courtney and I were the most exciting thing to happen to their house. She fed us so well! Our last day in Japan was spent in Kyoto again. We went on this amazing night hike, so cool! The food there was amazing. I won't be able to eat sushi here for a long time! Also there was ice cream everywhere! I grew quite fond of the black sesame or goma ice cream. In Kyoto Mitchell sensei took all the seniors out for yaki niku. We paid a flat fee and then ate as much meat as we could in 90 minutes. So delicious, but also kind of gross... I really enjoyed bonding with Mr. Mitchell on the trip. He put in a lot of effort to make the trip the best it could be for us. Good ol' Lighting Mike. But by the end of the trip I was pretty ready to return to normalcy. My sleep schedule is still a mess since I got into this vicious nap cycle. Not all is perfect though (C'mon this IS my life). One of my closest friendships is pretty much a mess. Now it wasn't my fault, but it still hurts. We're not even talking right now. I don't know if that's good or not..It still hurts to think about the way things were so I know I need some time to heal. But on the other hand I miss him dearly and would love even just a text message. I was quite a mess after the big fall out. Sonya had to push me around Target in a shopping cart to try to make me feel better. It just hurts that after all this time it doesn't matter that I know his favorite color, or what shows he likes, or how he likes his fucking bagels. He made his choices... wow, things just got intense... moving on. My senioritis is in full swing! (Pretty obvious considering I'm blogging right now...) I am so behind on smart fm! Half my classes are a joke. I have to do a "legacy" project for humanities and I'm still figuring that out. I nap sooo much. All I want is to watch good movies and tv. Well 2 months to graduation!!! ahhhhh almost out! Senioritis is a serious issue, don't let it get to you!

Making Sonya Proud

Looking sexy in that Victorian era way

nothing says hipster like bonnets, instagram, and highwaisted shorts

selfies it's what we do

who's that wannabe Asian in the background

He was just too cool for me :(

TOTEMO OISHII!

Damn it we're cute!

Look Sonya I posted Pictures!!! Any way! I've been absolutely crazy which is how I always am so it's really not that crazy. Since the last time I posted I've ended my high school musical career, got into colleges, hosted foreigners and continued every day events. My last musical was bittersweet. Let's just say my time with the music/theatre dept. hasn't exactly been a dream come true. But our show this year was a lot of fun and I'm already missing some of my cast mates. Saturday I came home from the cast party to find my mom had opened another of my college letters. Woohoo! It was my acceptance to Gettysburg. That Monday I wore a GBurg tshirt like a total tool, but I didn't care. I also got accepted to Susquehanna, and Union (my safeties), Skidmore, and Franklin and Marshall. F&M is probs my 2nd choice school. I got waitlisted for a bunch of schools, rejected from one, and have the last and most important one in the mail. I'm really, really nervous and just want this whole thing to be over! Also that Saturday I was kind of asked to Prom. True, it was by my gay best friend, but at least I'm not going alone! I told my mom that James and I were going as friends and she just said "Is there another way to go to prom with James?" I love him he's so funny! For the records, he's going to be amazingly famous and successful one day I'm calling it. Yes, but Sunday after the show I met my exchange students Fumiya and Kuzen. Sonya and I spent most of the exchange worrying that our students didn't like us! This year, I tried really hard to practice and be legit with my Japanese speaking. However, my students weren't very talkative. It was really awkward cause they would both sit in the backseat of my car. Chauffeur style! But then they left me a thank you note on my dresser and I was really happy. Also Kuzen facebook messaged me so I knew he cared in the end! Thursday they left. That night my dance teacher wasn't there so the studio owner taught our class. She can be kind of intimidating. She made us do a ton of reps and really focused on our technique. Gosh, I need my double pirouette! Then I went home showered and got ready for Hunger Games with Sonya! We really enjoyed the movie but mocked it too. Me:Why don't they have two crowns? Sonya: Budget cuts. Allusions to the Lion King were also made. Friday I had off from school. I did breakfast and started photoshooting with Nicole. I had to go to school and finish my portfolio. I went on a picnic to enjoy the lovely weather. Had a voice lesson. Took some more pictures. Saw Footloose at GL. Saturday was guard, more pictures, and babysitting. Sunday was more pictures (surprised?), and random duties. I really hope these negatives come out nicely. My teacher totally tore apart my last roll. She told me they were boring and anyone could have taken them. At least she's honest. Well here's to hoping...

How?

How does this keep happening?!?! I try so hard to blog consistently! It's quite difficult considering I'm practically never home! Life is really up and down right now. For a while I was having a really rough go at things, but things are coming together now. I think I'm having an identity crisis or something I just feel kind of isolated and weird. I don't know maybe it's just being so excited to leave New Prov. I think being so close to leaving makes all the seniors go crazy. People openly don't like each other now and are starting to distance themselves. I even feel more critical. On the plus side the weather is starting to warm up! I spent a lot of time outside today and it was absolutely gorgeous! I took a roll of film in the Watchung Reservation. I took a lot of pictures of this water tower with a ton of graffiti on it. Someone wrote "swag you would kill for." New Mantra?  I'm making a portfolio as a last ditch effort to get into college. One of my photographs qualified as a finalist for a competition. I looked at some of the competing prints, they were all so beautiful it was hard to believe my print was included with them. Also most of them were digital and color. I would die to have a DSLR camera, but since they cost an arm and a leg I'll just keep drooling. This week is production week for the musical! Which means it's almost over! But seriously I don't think the show's gonna be that bad this year. Then right after the musical I'm picking up my Japanese boys! I think hosting will be fun this year since I can drive them around! Hopefully after that things will be a little calmer. But then it'll be time to get ready for my Japan trip!!! Mama Nat ordered my ticket yesterday! We're going to Tokyo, Kyoto, and Fukui! I'm ridiculously excited. I bought a purse with Sonya to lug all my stuff around in. Right now I'm procrastinating a Euro project but I should probs get on that ughhhhhhhhhh! Time to draw pictures of Napoleon...yay...

way too long!

It's been way to long since I've blogged! I'm not even sure what to post about! So much has happened! The birthdays of the two biggest fans of life and times! (Sonya and Nicole: I'll hit you up when I'm legal ;)) I got accepted to a college including their honors program and a scholarship (but it's my safety school so I hopefully won't even have to consider going), got deferred from another school. Took midterms and officially became a second semester senior. Ahhh it feels good to blog! I've barely been home which means I barely have time to sleep let alone document my busy life. In Psychology we're learning about motivation and desires so I'm going to make a list of things I want right now.
1) To get into my top choice school (I'm being weird and superstitious, but I feel like if I post the name I'll jinx myself!). I changed my app to Early Decision which increases my chances and means I find out at the end of the month. I'm ridiculously nervous especially since I got deferred from one of my other schools. Which by the way sent me into a self pitying low self-esteem mode. Which is stupid and I hated feeling that terrible and I complained to some supportive friends perhaps a tad too much. Any way I had two separate dreams that I got into the school so hopefully this will be a dream come true. I'm taking it as a good omen! If I get in I'm buying so much school spirit crap for me and everyone I know!
2) A love letter! I was on StumbleUpon a very amusing website that totally enables procrastination. And found this website about a girl who wrote 300 love letters. They were to friends, strangers, everyone, no one, and yes boyfriends. Also I've been watching more than my normal amount of RomComs which appeals to my sentimental side. And Valentine's Day spirit is in the air. Oh well! This one is out of my hands!
3) A ukulele! I really want one to play cool songs on. I just think I should have a portable instrument I can jam with. And ukuleles are perfect for cute, quirky girls who like singing! So I'll probs order one online with my babysitting money soon. Finding the right one is tricky though!
4) New TOMS! The pair I have are actually falling apart! I was looking at 3 pairs earlier today, but it's a big decision!I wear my current pair practically every day.
5) My cartilage pierced. I promised myself I'd get on that after I applied to colleges which I finished!!! However, now I'm considering just waiting until after musical cause I might have to take it out for the show and I would NOT want it to close up.
6) More time! I'm ridiculously busy right now! I've been putting things off so much. Doctor's appointments, getting my hair cut, shopping, cleaning my room (even with all the time in the world that'd be a struggle for me though!)
7)Springtime! I want it to be warm enough to wear my pink flowery dress again! I don't do this whole winter thing well!
8) Strike that I want to leave this state! Which comes at end of Summer. Scary but exciting! Don't get me wrong I love you garden state and I do love my life in New Prov, but it's been far too long and I need the change and the excitement of a place where no one knows my middle name! I need a fresh start too.
wow what an insightful look into my psyche that's pretty scary. Well, recently I've been very blaze about how people feel about me. If people want to judge me they can. Yes but all is well on the home front and maybe I'll try to stay more consistent with my blogging... yeah about that! 

MUN-days

Bright and early for Friday I left for the 2012 Model United Nations conference. I lugged all my stuff to the school and prepared myself for the long and cold bus ride. My stuff included my huge photography book, and my fuji camera. (What? Can't miss a day!). I found my friend Josh who was in my committee last year and this year so we caught up. As per usual New Prov delegation arrived late and missed the brunch. (Good scheduling Mitchell sensei). So before heading to committee I stopped at the Hershey Lodge coffee shop, the Cocoa Beanery, for a chocolate chai and a chocolate croissant. YUM! Everything from that cafe is amazing. From there on out my weekend was eat, sleep, committee. My committee was Envirotech for the 3rd year. Envirotech is like the best committee ever <3. We debate cool topics and have tons of fun. And this year my country was Norway. Norway had really good views for the topics and it's always amazing to have a 1st world country! There were a bunch of people who came back from last year. It was great to work with them again. On the 1st resolution we debated I passed an amendment! 3/4 authors deemed the amendment friendly so we still had to enter unfriendly amendment debate. The dissenting author was really kind of annoying so I'm happy my amendment passed. :D. Over the weekend I passed 2 other resolutions. Mr. Mitchell and Mr. Meyers are so chill as advisers though. Friday night Abs and I went to the St. Joe's hallway so my buddy Josh (his country was Myanmar hahaha) could drop off his stuff. While walking down the hallway we had several questionable comments made as us. We were referred to as "babes" and to phrase it delicately Josh was sent some encouraging words. Pretty objectifying, but also kind of flattering. Then in the hallway we ran into one of Abby's friends from committee so we went to the lobby with some nice looking catholic school boys. Oh, also while on that floor we smelled a ton of pot! Who says MUN is for geeks? Besides committee the most exciting part of Saturday is the dance/activity time. The dance is pretty sketchy. Lots of dirty dancing and hook ups with strangers. Well, none of that for me. Though I was sort of asked to the dance... Well a boy from my committee asked me if I'd be going to the dance. He also sent me a character development award in committee. Their like little compliment sheets. Haha but he didn't even say hi to me at the dance, so who knows what went down. After dance time once again Abby, Josh, and I ended up in the St. Joe's hallway. We found some of the guys we were talking to Friday. I kind of flirted with one of them... hey c'mon don't judge! He was cute and I knew nothing would come of it. Last day is always really fun. We just kind of joke around and pass fake resolutions. And we all get really sad when we say good bye. It's really weird that I won't be going back next year. I'm sad it's over but my last year was fantastic. I'm pretty sure everyone in my committee liked me, all my outfits were adorable, and I was really successful. At least it was an amazing last year.

T'was the season for not blogging tralalala

Haven't blogged in so long! haven't even blogged about Christmas. Christmas shopping and wrapping was so stressful this year! Kicking off the holiday season was an ugly sweater party. I wore one of Nicole's mom's sweater. I looked pretty awesome :P. Once again, I ended up with Nicole and Sonya taking Christmas pictures on people's lawn, but this time Abs was there too. Christmas was awesome! I got an instaprint Fuji camera and Hunter rainboots! I spent Christmas chilling, watching movies, and just enjoying the day. Also at secret Santa I got sweet oxford boots from Sonya. I gave Emma a photography print and some jewelry, I think she really liked it.My buddy Rob also gave me a photography book. I kinda, really love it. Saturday was a trip to the city to see the tree. Nicole really wanted to go! We got lunch at this delicious Korean place. I got some amazing soup! The group was Sonya, Nicole, me, Thomas and Gabe. Good talk :). Then it was time for New Year's Eve at my house. It was incredibly stressful! Some of my friends were being very obnoxious though! At least I had a cute new outfit. I started my one instaprint pic for a year. It's very challenging! We started Pirates of Penzance practices. At the read through I discovered I only have a couple of spoken lines. Which is pretty upsetting I feel pretty sad about it. So current obsession...SCRUBS! I found that it's instantly streamed on netflix. I've been watching so many episodes. It's actually hysterical! But it does prevent me from being totally productive! Tomorrow I leave for MUN! Still need to finish packing...oops. Ughhh I'm so bad at packing!